I have been receiving these messages reinforcing the notion of settling and it pisses me off. It gets so repetitive and tired. If you initially look at something and dismiss it with disdain, why are you forcing yourself to like it? That maybe you’re asking for too much? Or that this might be all you […]
I am supposed to be sleep but I just bought my AFI Fest tickets (which I’ll talk more about on my travel blog ) and not to brag but that pass was $400 and the fact that I been overspending on make up and food but my budget still worked out has me gassed.
Last night was epic beyond measure. Who knew that I could be so carefree. I’m bald (and I was wearing a hat last night) but I let my hair down and enjoyed myself so much. The J. Cole concert was cute but last night tho. The concert was amazing. I sung and danced the whole […]
i never felt so alive… Shyness has choked the goodness out of every moment. I’ve always been self conscious about how the world views me in public spaces. Are they staring at me? Is there something wrong with what I’m doing? Always jealous of the people that I’d see living carefree dancing their hearts out […]
The journey here has not been an easy one. It’s been a lot trial and error. A lot of fake it til you make it but I am here. The place where people dream of being and I did it all before life was perfect.
For some people on the outside looking in, I have it figured out. I know the right things to say when it matters to them. I can coddle their first world problems gently to sleep. I believe in them when they don’t believe in themselves. I’m so encouraging but…
I have never been more supported in anything in my life like the quest to get high. All of my weed smoking friends have been giving me advice left and right. Last Monday was no exception, when my friend Pablo came to pick me up he had a hard candy edible with my name on […]
I watched him fix a sandwich and the idea popped in my head to feed him. I don’t know about you but my randomness rules me. I didn’t care how much it’d cost or that I’ve never made anything like this in my life. I just wanted to do something sweet. I wanted him to […]
I got back in town early Saturday morning. I was good and ready to get over this quest to get high but everyone is/was rooting for me so it’d be bad to be a disappointment to my support system.
Sometimes I sit back and ask myself, “Why do we need friends again?” I honestly have no other words beyond this but I will try to write at least a paragraph since I am here.